Virginie - My love - the one I am beyond excited to have the opportunity to spend the rest of my life with-
Before I met you, I thought I knew what love was, I thought it was something that people said they felt for the person that they wanted to spend a lot of time with, it always started with infatuation and when that wore off, you either broke up or some people had already made mutual commitments that didn’t allow them to leave. Needless to say, I was just about done with the fairy tale idea that love was a genuine thing and not just a story our parents told us like Santa Clause or the Easter Bunny to control our actions in one way or another.
When I met you everything changed, at first I was optimistic but cautiously as I didn’t really want to fall in love because I knew where that path had taken me previously. With you it was different, when we had a conversation, time flew by and before we knew it, it was way too late; when we talked, I felt like we had been friends forever, right from the very beginning on our first date at Mod pizza where you wouldn’t let me watch you eat. Something about you made me feel something deeper than I’ve ever really felt, it was a feeling that I’d just stumbled upon something that was way better than I could even begin to comprehend.
They say that love is something beyond comprehension, I’d always thought this statement as a sentimental pile of rubbish until I met you. Just the act of holding your hand lights me up inside more than anything I’ve ever experienced. I think it’s the subconscious thought that I’ve found someone who cares about me in a way that I’ve always thought a caring relationship could present, yet never even close to seen it up until I met you.
I tell you almost every time we see eachother how lucky I feel that you’re in my life and I sometimes imagine if me three years ago heard myself speak now, I would mock my sentiments and be disgusted at the lies that my present self must be trying to convince my brain of. What I’m getting at here, is that I didn’t think this kind of love actually existed in life, but here we are.
The one and only thing that I can think of that’s better than every moment that I’ve been able to spend with you is the notion that we could spend the rest of our lives together. I feel like my mind actually kind of breaks when I think about us spending the rest of our lives together, kind of like when you try to divide 1 by 0 in a computer program- the computer locks up and you have to restart the program in order to get it running again. It seems impossible to me that I could be this happy for the rest of my life and I think maybe, that’s the point of love.
The thing that I’ve realized with you is that there’s no reason to need to comprehend the future when I’ve literally got everything I could ever want right in front of my face right now. I know what you’re thinking, and no this doesn’t mean I’m never going to think about our future together-I’ll get to that in a minute- what I’m getting at here is that previously in life, I’ve always had my mind in the future in hopes that things will get better and that was what kept me motivated to keep trying. With you, I don’t need to continue to keep hoping for the future and thus the thought of what will happen tomorrow is irrelevant; and not appreciating every moment we have together would be a waste of the gift I’ve been blessed with by having you in my life.
When it comes to our future, I am so excited to see where we can go, the potential for our relationship is limitless in my mind and I know we’re going to have so much fun together. There are so many things about you that I absolutely love, but your dedication to saving money and preparing for the future is so inspiring, to be honest I’m a bit intimidated at the potential we have to create something truly amazing in our future. I have no idea what how our lives will come to develop, but I am absolutely enthralled to see what is in store.
That being said, I just wanted to show you my absolute gratitude that you’ve decided to spend your time with me. As long as we live, I will never take the time we spend together for granted; and if in 60 years from now we can be that old couple walking through the park holding hands I can tell you with the utmost confidence that I will be the happiest man on this planet. I Love you babe.
Your man,
-Nick